A story about a man-hating girlfriend who got into women’s sex industry 1 (NTR)

Girlfriend: Misaki (tentative), 28 years old, office worker at an infrastructure company
Me: Kakeru (tentative), 30 years old, software engineer
I had an ex-girlfriend whom I dated for 4 years, but we broke up when I found out she was cheating on me right before we got married, and then I met Misaki on a dating app.
I met Misaki on a dating app after that. Misaki was originally a man-hater, probably because she came from an all-girls high school, and in addition, she was traumatized by the fact that her ex-boyfriend had cheated on her in the past, so she had an aspect of not trusting men from the beginning. However, since I was also in the position of having been cheated on, we were able to deepen our understanding of each other and entered into a relationship.
By the way, her face looks a little like Jihyo from TWICE, but she is about 160 cm and has an F cup, so her style is really good. The only drawback is that she doesn’t like sex or anything related to the bottom half of the body due to her man-hating tendencies.
After 4 months of dating, I started to notice something strange.
(Pan! Pan! Pan!”)
Misaki “…………”
I “ah, ah, yikes…!”
Misaki “Did you go …………?”
I “Umm, yeah …… that felt good…”
During sex, when I inserted myself into Misaki, she basically did not say “yes” or “no”, but only moaned a little “ah, ah, ah, ah, ah…”. If you ask me, there is a possibility that even this is an act…
(Maybe we are not compatible…)
I began to think so and gathered up my courage to ask Misaki.
I said, “Hey…Misaki…how are things going during sex?”
Misaki “hmm? …… “How? LOL.”
Me “No, you see, I was wondering if you don’t feel too good…”
Misaki “Well, I honestly don’t know either. But if it makes you feel good, I’m fine with it.
I “No…I feel bad if I’m the only one who feels good…”
Misaki: “Don’t worry about it. I don’t have any sexual sensitivities? And I probably don’t have any…”
Misaki said it was okay anyway, but I was worried. I was worried because I remembered that I had definitely felt it once when I inserted a long vibrator into Misaki’s vagina when we went to a love hotel at the beginning of our relationship.
Incidentally, at that time
Misaki “Aaah! Aaah! Kacchan, stop! It hurts! It hurts! I’m scared! Stop!!!!”
He screamed a little and I immediately stopped.
I said, “Sorry…were you scared ……?”
Misaki “umm…it was going to get weird…and I was so scared…I wanted to run away…”
Me “It won’t happen again…I’m really sorry…”
Misaki: “Umm…yeah ……”
which contradicts Misaki’s statement that she has no sexual organs.
And above all, the fact that the specs of my thing are medium or below medium is another cause for concern.
(Erection: 12cm, thickness: about 3cm, pseudo foreskin)
After two weeks of having such anxiety about my penis, Misaki said to me while sucking my penis.
Misaki said, “Kacchan, can it get a little bigger…?
The sudden question made me upset for a moment.
I said, “What? …lol. No, I don’t think I can go any further…. See…it’s like boobs…if you get breast implants, they get bigger, don’t they? It’s the same as that…”
Misaki: “So this size is the limit for you, huh?”
I was humiliated by being told straight out, but at the same time I was filled with an inexpressible excitement.
Misaki “Oh…, I feel like it’s getting really hard compared to before.
I “Oh…, oh, I’m going!
I was so excited that I ended up spewing all of my semen into Misaki’s mouth.
Misaki “……………. I’m going to the bathroom…”
Misaki went to the bathroom to spit out the fucking bad sperm, gargled with oral rinse, and came back to me.
Misaki said, “What’s wrong Kacchan? I mean, you were so hard.”
I “I must have had a lot of cum today… sweat.”
Misaki “You can make it hard, but you can’t make it big.
I “It’s something you are born with. Is the size that big bothering you? Maybe your ex-boyfriend was bigger than you…?”
I felt as if I was opening a door to a path from which there was no turning back.
Misaki: “I would be lying if I said I don’t care…. It just felt a little different than when I sucked my ex-boyfriend’s…”
I said, “You mean your ex-boyfriend’s was bigger?”
(Don’t make me ask this question again and again) I think.
Misaki: “Yes, it was bigger. I think he was at least 2-3 cm bigger.”
(At least…)
I “I see. ……. Was there any difference in the sex itself…?”
(What am I asking…)
Misaki: “I’d be lying if I said there wasn’t. With my ex-boyfriend I always had the feeling that I wanted to escape something anyway, but with Kacchan I don’t have that feeling, so I can do it without worry…”
I “What exactly is the feeling of wanting to escape that I’ve heard about a few times before?”
Misaki “I don’t know either, but it feels like something really big is hitting me…”
Me “Does it feel good?”
(please, no more…)
Misaki “Yes, it feels really good…”
Me “………”
Misaki “Oh…! I don’t mean that you don’t feel good, okay? It feels good, but I don’t mean that I want to run away, I don’t mean that in a positive way! I don’t like being scared or wanting to run away either…”
I “………”
(I knew it was so…)
I was convinced. I was convinced that Misaki had the constitution to be able to feel good during sex. However, my penis is not big enough to make her feel good…
Misaki said, “What, I’m, I’m sorry? I don’t want to talk about my ex-boyfriend or something…?”
(Don’t apologize…)
I “Ok… if you’re not satisfied, there are sex clubs for women and so on…”
(What am I saying…)